Friday, October 8, 2010
are you safe? - an internal monologue
I know you can see me, please don't look the other way
we've worked together for 3 years
I know you're busy. I know you've got your life
your kids and your mortgage
and you're pleasant enough
we talk about the seasons changing
and construction slowing our drives
among other unremarkable things
I feel pathetic, like I'm begging for attention
you know what? don't worry about it
but you have a depth
I can tell
it's not like I have major problems
just a handful of minor ones
pretty standard really
but I hurt
did you know that I paint?
yeah - weird hey?
I love it
painting, that is
"what are you doing this weekend?"
my friend died last year
I never told anyone here
didn't even take time off
I don't know why
are you ok with this superficiality?
because I'm growing increasingly tired or it
somedays I can't tell the difference
do you ever daydream about swerving into oncoming traffic?
or off an embankment?
not in a death-wish sort of way
but just for fun?
are you safe...?
"are you safe?"